Farewell Vancouver
Some notes from July 06
Saying goodbye to this beautiful city is hard. I had the time of my life here. No matter what time of the year; when I would look out of my bedroom window, I could see green trees. I never got tired of this view or the view of downtown Vancouver from one of the bridges. I always admired the cherry blossoms on the Lower Mall and always held my breath when I was looking at the water and mountains from the Rose Garden.
I have met some of the most interesting and not so interesting people here. I found friendship in people I least expected. I also got to know myself better. I never thought I would attach to a place again. You would think when you move a lot and leave your friends behind for couple of times, you get use to it. But that hasn’t happened to me yet. I guess it never will. I got emotional as I said goodbye to some of my friends.
I want to be excited for the start of a new chapter in my life but it seems more that I’m living in a denial. I don’t even feel anxious. I feel empty. I have cut all the wires from my brain to my heart. Every time I feel sad, I block all those thoughts. I have even stopped dreaming. I know I should be proud of myself to have the courage to make another move, another change yet the truth is I’m taking it one day at a time. I have stopped doing long term planning because that is the only way I can keep going. Every time I’ve taken a risk (not that many), it turned out to be in my advantage. I hope this time is the case as well. I hope the universe nudges me toward new adventures beyond my imagination. I must start dreaming again...
I have met some of the most interesting and not so interesting people here. I found friendship in people I least expected. I also got to know myself better. I never thought I would attach to a place again. You would think when you move a lot and leave your friends behind for couple of times, you get use to it. But that hasn’t happened to me yet. I guess it never will. I got emotional as I said goodbye to some of my friends.
I want to be excited for the start of a new chapter in my life but it seems more that I’m living in a denial. I don’t even feel anxious. I feel empty. I have cut all the wires from my brain to my heart. Every time I feel sad, I block all those thoughts. I have even stopped dreaming. I know I should be proud of myself to have the courage to make another move, another change yet the truth is I’m taking it one day at a time. I have stopped doing long term planning because that is the only way I can keep going. Every time I’ve taken a risk (not that many), it turned out to be in my advantage. I hope this time is the case as well. I hope the universe nudges me toward new adventures beyond my imagination. I must start dreaming again...
Comments
I really wishi you a great new chapter in your life, full of happiness and success. I know it is so hard to start again, but I also know that every new start is a sign of new good things...
be happy my friend; be happy and enjoy your time.
We are always with you.
But your courageous seeking of CHANGE, is not something I can pass easily....
So, I am wishing upon the stars for you and I hope wonderful and incredible blissful moments ahead of you :D
Yours
Weblog sahab!
PS: Seeing AB+ link in the sidebar of your blog, ba man aan kard ke booye jooy mooliyan ayad hami ba amire saamani!
I'll start writing there in a near future, for your sake!
Thanks for your kind words. I feel so lucky to have good friends everywhere.
I still remember those days that our blogs looked the same and you used to write more often. I miss you these days more than ever. I hope you go back to your previous routine when it comes to writing.
I was hesitant to move away from Vancouver for a new job but I hope this turns out to be more of a blessing than a mixed blessing.
I left AB+ link just because it's hard to let go. You don't have to write anything there. I'm sure after a while I'll get use to your new blog . It looks great BTW.
I believe human is more adaptable than they think they are. I'm sure it will be tough at the beginning but I'll get use to my new surrounding if I accept it. --In order to gain something, we have to give up other things--.
I'm very grateful that I can take my blog anywhere I go. It would have been a pity to lose loyal readers and supporters like you guys.
Best :)
Best of luck :)
I look forward to reading your blog again. I hope you shorten your break and come back.